This entry is written to a Girl who once love God so much,
Who once put Him first,
Who once never let Him go,
Who never give up on Him.
This girl is very special to me,
A friend that I rather can't live without,
A friend that have a mind of Christ,
A friend that never forget, never lie, cares for everyone, try her best to be like Jesus
To me, she is my supporter.
When I am sad, when I felt like giving up, giving up on God, giving up my life, I will think of her.
A vision of her smile, her fire for God, her words, her care and concern that touches my heart.
She is very real, she doesn’t act. She does everything for God, because she knows that He love her and nothing is more important than Him.
In the past...
I came to the BBq; Darren brought me there for a reason. That time my reason is Food but Darren's reason is God. I went to the BBq feeling fun, once I reach there, I felt rather special about everyone there, all of them, there is something I can't tell. A very special feeling.
That Girl came to me. I can still remember, she says, “hi, do you think I am older or she is older?"
She and Joey came to me just to ask me about their age, I was rather shocked. I looked at them for a few seconds, there is something I can't tell about them, the feeling they gave me, a warm and loving feeling, a friendly and "long-lost friend" feeling. I am very happy I got to know her that day.
After a few weeks, I never seen a person so on fire for God, love God so much.
She make up my mind that even if everyone forsake Him, She will not.
She always sensitive to others feeling, God gives her this gift.
I feel so relax and real talking to her.
She gives me a “don’t want to hide anything from her" feeling.
"Girl, this entry is specially written for you, not only because I want you back here again, but because God wants you back. I know there are many things in the world that are fun, that are attracting. But my girl, think about it... it won't last. When Jesus comes down, He will bring you with Him and we will all be together for eternally.
I feel that there are times you felt down, there are times many many people will reject you, many many friends mocked at you. But I am sure everyone in our Cell Group does not. They love you so much. I am sure you know it from your heart. God loves you too. Do you remember how He blesses you with money that you don't even know that you will have it? Do you remember how much you long for Him, how much you want to see Him face to face? Everyone in discipleship class loves you.
Tell you the truth, last week, discipleship class. I tea red while worshipping, God reminded me of you, then the phone rang... remember? You came out to off it. I open my eyes and saw you turn and walk away. I am sad because you walk away from Him. He loves you, He loves you, He loves you but you turn away from Him. Do you know how much Hurt you gave Him? I know you are sad too, sad because He don't seem to bless you, sad because He seem like controlling you, sad because you can't do things, say things that your friends can. But do you know that it is for your good? That’s why that time, I first saw you, and you gave me that feeling, that special feeling... It is so attractive.
I just want to tell you that no matter what He will never give up on you, He will always stand by your side even is you don't want Him to. He will support you even if the whole world turns against you. Jesus loves you so much that He died for you."
"God ask Tor to tell you....He is waiting for you...waiting for you to turn back to Him...waiting for you to talk to Him...waiting for you to love him again"
Jesus love you, He love you, He love you, He will never give up on you, you are the 300. I stand by you just like Jesus.